It has been 2 weeks since I came back from Vietnam. 2 weeks of doing nothing with my life but to make the best out of nothing. I got in touched with some of the family that were lost down the line. They were quite happy to see me; too happy actually. Surprised to see me so grown from the little girl I was 6 years ago but that didn’t stop them from pinching my fat cheeks like how they used to do when I was little.
With that being said, I also spent numerous amount of time thinking about what I want to do and what I NEED to do. It’s hard trying to perfect a life when I know nothing is ever perfect and the way you deal with the imperfections makes your life, well, perfect. The beauty on how life works. My family, especially my wonderful uncles, threw out a few suggestions and I’m really thinking about it. It’s going to be hard starting over but I know it will pay off in the near future. Let’s see how this year will go and if I’m in need of desperate help, I am considering to start anew somewhere else.
It sucks not showing sad emotions to my friends and letting it all pile up inside but damn, I am so frustrated with everything; my life. Worked so hard, yet, to be back where I first started. I’m trying to stay positive but as the saying goes, “when life knocks you down, you either get back up or dwell on it.” I’m slowly progressing to get back up but it’s time and my very own motivation to keep progressing. I can do it, I can do it, I can do it. That’s the mentality needed and repeated. If I can do it before, I can do it twice as better.
I’m not going to sit here and pretend to like something I don’t like and force myself to be interested in things I get bored to death with. Seriously, people need to get the picture that you don’t need to dumb it down to get people to like you. Just be who you are and share the difference with each other so they, too, can be educated in things they are not informed about. SIMPLE. Don’t make it difficult trying to keep up the lies you’re trying to live with.
Happy birthday to my little brother John! He’s ONLY 14 :))) Aw! He’s growing up! He’s getting tall and his voice is changing. Makes my heart melt to see him grow. He needs to stop and stay my baby brother.
Hm, should I go to the GSW game against the Wizards on Sunday? I have a feeling it’s going to be a good ass game.
I miss these nights of eating delicious food in the city. I’m glad to be back.
I can’t get ahold of HR :( and I can’t get ahold of my old landlord for my mails which I need because of my W-2. FML.
I HATE when people constantly ask me where I’m at or who I’m with. Don’t ask me those stupid ass questions 24/7. If you need something then ask away. You’re not my significant other. I don’t see a ring on my finger to be tied down and let you know every little details of my life.
I’m still the same girl who doesn’t like to sit there expressing her feelings. The expressions I’ll tell you are when I’m smiling, frowning or crying. Don’t expect much when you ask me how I feel.
Seriously! Ever since I got back, my liver has been taking a hit each and every day. Quite surprised I survived and stood tall at all the alcohol that were consumed. Starting next week, I’m going to try to get rid of my messed up sleep pattern. It’s still all over the place like a sloppy ho haha.